It Starts With a Dream…

“You have to dream before your dreams can come true!” ~A.P.J. Abdul Kalam

I love starting out each post with some food for thought that sets the stage… I know it’s a short quote and may even seem obvious when you first read it, but really and truly there is so much depth in the quote.  It is profound. I encourage you to take a moment and just read it again.  Notice that there is a process that takes place when it comes to actually realizing or achieving our dreams.  We must dream in the first place! How many of us have buried dreams that are so near and dear to our hearts? How many of us have actually stopped dreaming altogether?

I was at a leadership seminar earlier this evening and the speakers shared a lot of helpful information about success and leadership, but what was most vital is that there is a beginning point to success and it begins with a dream.  Tonight I was asked a question about what my childhood dream was and then  I had the privilege of witnessing one of the speakers share how her childhood dream is now (many years later) coming true and that was so moving and inspiring.  I was inspired to actually stop for a moment and reflect back on my childhood and ask myself what my dreams were.  Sadly I thought about the fact that I didn’t really have any dreams of who I wanted to be or what I wanted to do when I grew up.  I knew immediately why that was and realized that I did have a dream, but my dream was different, and maybe somebody reading this can relate.  My dream was birthed from a broken heart.  My dream was for my family – that my parents would stay together, be in love, and not get divorced.  Sadly they did and not only was my heart broken but that also crushed my own dreams for family in the future.  Failed relationship after failed relationship, then illness followed by depression only reinforced that the crushed dream was indeed impossible.  Only recently has the dream that once seemed impossible to me actually start to seem possible again.  I can’t speak for everyone, but I think it’s common among little girls to dream of having a family of their own one day.  We play house with baby dolls, etc. I hear my little cousins say they can’t wait to have babies one day.  I realize that I was actually envious of them because they were children and they had more confidence and belief than me when it came to having a family one day.  On an even deeper level, a part of why that dream seemed impossible, is because I have struggled with fear of not being capable of being a good mom.  The enemy used my childhood experiences to torment me and feed me lies.  Thankfully God’s light is shinning where there once was darkness and the lies are being replaced with truth.  I am being renewed daily and I’m so thankful to my sweet Lord for His awesome work in me.

Recently, I visited a sweepstakes giveaway dream home as a dream building exercise with my leadership team and we were asked how this experience inspired us.  I wasn’t inspired by the fancy home, but instead, the dream that was buried so deep in me was beginning to be awakened and revived because I was inspired by the idea that a family could live in this home – my future family.  So my childhood dream which is so near and dear to my heart is to have a loving family of my own.

Now, maybe you’re thinking well that that’s out of my control. If you are, you are absolutely right! My life is in God’s hands and He is in control of whether or not I live to get married and to whom and whether or not I could even have children, but I’m not worried because even though those events are not in my control, I do have control of whether or not I prepare myself for this dream becoming reality.  If my mentality or mindset is one of scarcity instead of abundance, I won’t be prepared to receive the blessings God has for me.  I do have the option to prepare for my dream but first I have to begin by dreaming it and believing that with God what seemed impossible to me is possible with Him.  The Bible says to delight yourself in the Lord and he will grant you the desires of your heart.  I’m trusting God in faith for this dream!

So now I turn the stage over to you… Did you have a childhood dream? What was it? What dream is near and dear to your heart?  Let’s stop waiting and start taking steps, then strides, then leaps towards running this race of life toward living out our dreams and experiencing the live we’ve always wanted!

Don’t waste another moment! “Your chances of getting your goals and dreams in this life greatly diminish when you’re on the wrong side of the grass.” ~Tim Marks~

Dear God,                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                Thank You for bringing back to life the dream that has been buried deeply for so long.  Lord I surrender this dream to You and place it into Your hands knowing that You are indeed the author and finisher of my faith.  You know the desires of my heart and I trust that as I delight in You, that You will grant them.  I pray that Your will be done in my life.  I also pray for every person who comes across this page and for those with dreams that need reviving, please help them Lord to look to You first for the hope that is needed to truly live a life of freedom and possibilities.  You are awesome God and I love you.  In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen ❤

My Greatest Dream: True Love

WoW! Where do I begin… I could write a book to share this story, but I’ll do my best to keep it short & sweet 🙂

As long as I can remember I’ve always dreamt of finding true love.  I was for most of my life a hopeless romantic looking for love, acceptance and security in all the wrong places.  I hurt myself and others along the way trying hard to get my fill.  On this quest to find true love I thought a man was the answer, my knight in shining armour, my prince, my hero.  When failed relationship after failed relationship and feelings of rejection and abandonment resurfaced over and over I started to look elsewhere.  I needed answers and at the time the world was giving me the wrong one by telling me that the answer was ME… I had to first love myself before I could really find true love or that true love was loving myself?? huh?? So I tried to love and accept myself and provide myself a false sense of security that I so desperately needed.  I failed miserably! Who am I apart from God who is Love Himself to be able in my own strength to provide anything for myself.  I am an imperfect human being created to be loved and cared for by my Creator.  Only I was so lost so far away from the truth, yet He never failed in His pursuit for me.  I was so far gone, so far from Him but I was desperate for His love.  I was lovesick in need of a Saviour and a cure.  In fact I was so lovesick that I became mentally sick. Aside from having suffered with undiagnosed anxiety and depression most of my life, I then developed a mental illness called Psychosis for which I was hospitalized on numerous occasions for having had multiple episodes and relapses for which now the diagnoses is Schizoaffective Disorder.  Unlike most people with this disorder, I am high functioning and by the grace of God doing well and relapse free for almost 3 years.  Undergoing these psychotic episodes was the most terrifying experience of my life.  I literally thought that I had died and gone to hell….but Jesus!  Yes, Jesus came to my rescue!  I cried out to Him and called on the God of this universe and begged Him to rescue me and He did.  He answered and my life has never been the same since.  He was the answer to my greatest dream and my greatest desire to be loved, accepted, and secure.  He is True Love.  True Love found me!  I came across a passage of Scripture today from Psalm 12:5 that reads,

“FOR THE OPPRESSION OF THE POOR, FOR THE SIGHING OF THE NEEDY, NOW I WILL ARISE,” SAYS THE LORD, “I WILL SET HIM IN THE SAFETY FOR WHICH HE YEARNS.”

That’s me! I was the oppressed poor person sighing in need to be rescued – to be loved and secured.  God performed His word and He did rise up and set me in the safety for which I yearned.  You see God is so faithful, even when we aren’t, He is.  It has been 3 years since True Love has found me and I’ve wandered so many times still looking for love in all the wrong places, but He never gives up on me.  He pursues me daily bringing me back to Him – my first love.  I feel like finally now I’m waking up to the reality that it isn’t just a dream anymore – now it’s a dream come true and I am safe and able to fall freely in love with my Saviour, my Hero, my Knight in shining armour, my Prince…

Thank You Jesus… I love You 🙂

Disclaimer: Please know that I’m not discounting the importance of human love and affection. In fact it’s the second greatest commandment which is to love one another.  I’m just acknowledging God as the primary source of love since He is Love itself and we cannot love or be loved without first getting it and giving it through Him.  First and greatest commandment is to love God:)

P.S.  I’ve included a worship song that is dear to my heart and in keeping with the theme of this post. I hope that you enjoy it! If you have already been rescued by our Lord & Saviour Jesus Christ then my prayer is that you will continue to fall in love with Him more deeply and follow Him more closely.  If you happen to be reading this and you haven’t personally called out to Jesus to rescue you then I encourage you to take a leap of faith and call out to Him and He will answer and rescue you. You are loved and accepted! God Bless 🙂